January 23, 2010 a Turning Point in my Life.

January 23, 2010 a Major Turning Point in my Life

Being raised as a Catholic had its pluses and minuses. On the plus side I heard about Jesus early and attended church 6 days a week. I went to Catholic schools for 16 years. On the minus side my religious training was about the need to never sin and obey all the rules set forth by the church. We learned very little about God’s love , forgiveness and mercy. We were taught to confess our sins to a priest or if we died before confessing we would probably go to a fiery hell full of demons, or if we were lucky we might only have to spend 15,000 years in a fiery place called purgatory.

Once it was ingrained into my head that my salvation depended upon me behaving perfectly it was hard to see it any other way.

I first heard that we are saved by faith and grace when I was about 30 and heard many preachers throughout the next ten years saying there is nothing we can do to gain or lose our salvation, it has all been done by Jesus. Somehow I thought they were off the mark and never could believe it. I then spent the next ten years among Mennonites who also worried that we might lose our salvation by bad behavior.

Here I am 66 years old and today January 23^rd after about a 12 day illness during which I poured over the scriptures the page opened wide and there was the thing I had unknowingly hungered and searched for since I first started to seriously follow Jesus in 1977. I’m sure I had read over it many times but today there was Romans 4:8 illuminated before my eyes.

“Romans 4:8 Happy, How blessed is the person whose sins the Lord will never charge against him.”

I wept when the full import of it hit me. God made a promise and swore an oath that he would greet me and my memory of my sins without wrath or rebuking, but with mercy and deliberated forgetfulness of my evil deeds. Praise God almighty, free at last. My unrighteousness or righteousness played no role in this, it was because of God’s love mercy and grace and Yahshuah’s faithfulness that this exists; it is for everyone and those who believe it are the most blessed for they can live in joy and not fear. Thank you father for healing this blind man’s eyes. I once was blind but now I see.

I wish I could be a Baptist

I like it when I hear Baptists preach about Being Born Again, and I love it when they talk about

eternal life which once born into can never be lost no matter what we do.

I really need assurance especially when I am sick, or feeling low.

I am about 95% convinced that they are right and once you become "born again"

you can never lose your salvation and there is no condemnation

unless you allow the devil to condemn you, but God and Jesus do not condemn you.

I am guilty of condemning myself. I hate sin and when I sin, I beat myself up,

or spend time rationalizing what I did. I feel very uncomfortable and fearful. I always have.

The Baptists say that is just your sinful flesh and it will act up until you die.

Well it certainly has been acting up my whole life and I am closer to 70 than 20.

I wonder if Baptists really feel no condemnation???

But there is a major stumbling block for me with the Baptists and that is their extreme patriotism

and willingness to fight in their country's wars. To me that is so incongruous with

the call by Jesus to be as harmless as doves.

I say I am 95% in agreement with their salvation stand, but there are the nagging scriptures about

building your house on the sand by not doing what Jesus taught. I hear Jesus saying

" why do you call me Lord Lord and do not do what I said to do?"

The Baptists say you can deny Jesus and still be saved. Jesus said if you deny him,

he will deny you before the angels. I can't quite close that 5% gap. But I would like to. Sometimes that 5%

like a door left open a crack on a cold winter night, can send a chill through me.

I want to believe that no one including myself can pluck me out of the Father's hands. Jesus did say:

John 10:29 "My Father, which gave them to me, is greater than all; and no man is able to pluck them out of my Father's hand. "

2012 Hoax

For those of you expecting the world to end in 2012 come back here on 2013 and listen to me say I told you so.

It is so preposterous to think that if God would not reveal the date to Jesus or the angels, he would reeal it to a tribe of blood -thirsty Cannibals living in the jungles of Mexico.

The world will not end in 2012. Mark my word.

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